This is my life right now—computers, systems, labels, logistics, and the business side of running a business.
Honestly, it's the furthest thing from where I thought I'd be.
I wanted to make tea.
Soap.
Bath bombs.
Incense.
That's what I thought this was going to be about.
What people don't really talk about is that building a business isn't just creating products—it's being forced to sit face-to-face with yourself. Your patience. Your discipline. Your tolerance for mistakes. Your ability to keep going when nothing feels smooth or natural.
This process has been showing me who I am, and that part has been harder than any technical problem.
I've learned I don't give myself much grace. I expect perfection. I get angry at myself for not knowing everything, for making mistakes, for needing time to learn. I've been bullying myself lately, and realizing that has been uncomfortable as hell.
What surprised me most is how easily I give patience, compassion, and understanding to other people—and how reluctant I am to offer even a fraction of that to myself.
This is the part most people don't share. Not because it isn't happening—but because it's scary to be vulnerable when you're still in the middle of it. When you're trying to build something big. When you're learning who you are under pressure. When, at the same time you're pushing forward, you feel like you're failing.
Yesterday was hard—not just because things went wrong, but because I saw clearly how I talk to myself when they do. That hit harder than any setback.
I woke up today feeling like I need to break up with the version of myself that only knows how to criticize and demand—and figure out how to build something sustainable with the person actually doing the work.
This isn't the polished version of entrepreneurship.
But it's real.
And it's part of building something that lasts.
A lot of tears and sweat are going into this..
A lot.
Anyway that being said, please have a look at my shop… I am working hard to roll out some new products soon.
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